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Christmas, a time of joy and happiness and fun and fellowship with your loved ones. A time of togetherness, and a time of giving and loving. All in all, a time of good things that come your way….. though, you should try last minute christmas shopping, and i mean somewhere around like… the 22nd and 23rd… 0.o hectic would be an understatement. What’s more… i went with my girlfriend, so when i had finished shopping for those i was suppose to shop for, i told her "baby, why don’t you choose your christmas presents?" And she did, but only a few, and i felt like a lousy boyfriend, so after she and i had finished with our shopping, i sent her home, and made my way to another shopping complex to see what i could get for her as a suprise present. Thankfully, i found something, which till now, i still am not sure whether she will like it or not, but i guess it’s the thought that counts… though she always tells me to consult her mum or sister of fear that i will simply buy something that is a waste of money… *laughs* oh well… all that aside… i awoke yesterday morning(saturday), well… not actually in the morning lar… more like in the afternoon…………. OKOK…. evening lar… i woke up at 5.00 in the evening… *sheepishly looks for a place to hide face* =") to a super-duper-massive-immensely excruciatingly-painful-God-please-heal-me-straight-away sore throat and fever! And it’s like super painful even when i swallow my saliva k… but i heard this bugs going around trying to spoil people’s chritstmas… must be that darn Grinch’s Flu…. can u imagine… not being able to eat all those heaty yet delicious christmasy food? As it is now, i’m feeling slightly better, and am still comtemplating whether i should eat all those yummy food tonight. Hmm… what do you all think yah? I’m just afraid if i eat all the nonsense food tonight, the sore throat and fever will come back tomorrow, but if i persevere for one more day… then i’ll probably be at a 100% thus allowing me to legally eat whatever i want… then again, if i eat all those nonsense food, my anti-bodies might still be able to fight on and prevail, hence not making a difference as to whether i do eat nonsense yummy food or not tonight… am i making sense? I think i’m making sense.. so there… the decision is… i shall eat nonsense yummy food tonight!! *cough-cough, clears throat painfully* =S  Darn ^%#@$ flu! All i want for christmas is a cure for this flu, a cure for this flu, say a cure for this flu. Gee if only i had a cure for this flu, then i’d wish you a Merry Christmas….

Christmas, a time of joy and happiness and fun and fellowship with your loved ones. A time of togetherness, and a time of giving and loving. All in all, a time of good things that come your way….. though, you should try last minute christmas shopping, and i mean somewhere around like… the 22nd and 23rd… 0.o hectic would be an understatement. What’s more… i went with my girlfriend, so when i had finished shopping for those i was suppose to shop for, i told her "baby, why don’t you choose your christmas presents?" And she did, but only a few, and i felt like a lousy boyfriend, so after she and i had finished with our shopping, i sent her home, and made my way to another shopping complex to see what i could get for her as a suprise present. Thankfully, i found something, which till now, i still am not sure whether she will like it or not, but i guess it’s the thought that counts… though she always tells me to consult her mum or sister of fear that i will simply buy something that is a waste of money… *laughs* oh well… all that aside… i awoke yesterday morning(saturday), well… not actually in the morning lar… more like in the afternoon…………. OKOK…. evening lar… i woke up at 5.00 in the evening… *sheepishly looks for a place to hide face* =") to a super-duper-massive-immensely excruciatingly-painful-God-please-heal-me-straight-away sore throat and fever! And it’s like super painful even when i swallow my saliva k… but i heard this bugs going around trying to spoil people’s chritstmas… must be that darn Grinch’s Flu…. can u imagine… not being able to eat all those heaty yet delicious christmasy food? As it is now, i’m feeling slightly better, and am still comtemplating whether i should eat all those yummy food tonight. Hmm… what do you all think yah? I’m just afraid if i eat all the nonsense food tonight, the sore throat and fever will come back tomorrow, but if i persevere for one more day… then i’ll probably be at a 100% thus allowing me to legally eat whatever i want… then again, if i eat all those nonsense food, my anti-bodies might still be able to fight on and prevail, hence not making a difference as to whether i do eat nonsense yummy food or not tonight… am i making sense? I think i’m making sense.. so there… the decision is… i shall eat nonsense yummy food tonight!! *cough-cough, clears throat painfully* =S  Darn ^%#@$ flu! All i want for christmas is a cure for this flu, a cure for this flu, say a cure for this flu. Gee if only i had a cure for this flu, then i’d wish you a Merry Christmas….

What is Love..? Too many times have we heard and listened to people giving us their definitions of Love, but can it really be defined-defined? Just a thought, as something my friend was telling me earlier in the day about how sweet and caring and loving etc  couples are when they first start going out together, and after a few years (if they stay together for that long) everything starts to fade. Earlier in the relationship though, they declare their love for each other which by the way, is as high as the sky and as wide as the ocean. Of course, those who sit back and read this now would probably think, "But of course. They’re probably childish and think that their puppy love is for real." But then again my dear friends, do not all of us have that same feeling? That feeling which makes you want to soar up in the sky and sing your lungs out of air with joy and happiness when we first meet and get together with the boy/girl of our dreams? To a certain extent, we probably do feel that we’re in love but we’re actually not. The question then is, if we do get bored after a few years, is it still called love? Shouldn’t love be unconditional? To me, the clear cut answer is NO. It’s not love we feel. Contradictory to what I’ve just mentioned though, being in a relationship for too long a time can be rather stale i guess but for some of us, we still claim it love for feeling ‘sien’ or bored is a normal thing everyone has to go through but to be in love is to choose to love that person. You guys still with me? A rather confusing and contradictive topic not to mention annoying at some point should you rack your brains for an answer for too long a time. So basically, the wiser of people whom i have consulted have told me that love is a choice and not a feeling. If you were to base your relationship on feelings alone, it’s bound to go down the drain but on choice & feelings, then there lies hope for a future for the both of you. Yet, others have answered this "love is a choice" statement with a statement of their own saying "If love is a choice and not just a feeling, wouldn’t it be choosing to be with a person despite the fact that you don’t want to be anymore?" In other words, you are obligated to stay with that particular individual. How then can that be love? It’s more like a sense of responsibility if you choose to stay with him or her even if you don’t want to anymore and having a relationship only because you feel responsible for him or her is needless to say, bad. Of course, when they say "love is a choice" the ‘choice’ of an individual can be any sort of choice. It could be the good choice or the bad choice, in which case, if it’s the good choice, meaning you choose to be with the person because you want to be, then fine. But if you want to be with the person then you should not need to choose now should you? *laughs*   I’m sure by now, most of you (if you have followed me all the way) are having a headache as am I. =s Hehehe, aHHh, but more or less, i believe that you guys understand the crux of my question or rather this ‘phenomenon’.

The truth is… I’m lazy to do anything else now, so i decided to blog. The truth is, i’ve been neglecting my blog, and that’s bad? The truth is… I feel like eating non-stop and stop dieting. The truth is, i dread christmas time, because my loved ones put holes in my pockets.(Don’t start bad mouthing me!) It’s the truth! And i’m sure some of us feel the same way too. But, of course, Christmas is a time of giving and being happy, so… it’s ok KUA…. The truth is, I’m starting to fall in love with Janice(Wei Lan) The truth be told, I’m not really looking forward to getting my ass to Australia because i’d like to think that the pressure on my shoulders to perform in my studies would be immense. The truth be told, I wish i could play everyday and be care-free. The truth be told, i do not know whether I should watch Superman 1, 2, 3 & 4 or watch Dragonball GT after i finish this post. The truth be told, nothing out of the blue is happening in my daily life for me to want to excitedly come back home and start to blog, hence, my lack of attention towards my blog for the past few days. In fact, i just feel bad that i haven’t typed in my blog for the past few days so i decided to start on this "truth is-the truth be told" post. So……… the truth is, I haven’t started my christmas shopping!! sheaTtt!! tension.. ;( ……….. Hmmmm let’s see how many T words i can make in one sentence. "The Tantalazing Truth of The human heart is That Too many people Think That They should not Tell The Truth." Tempted To Try? Hahahaa, did that even make any sense? That took me about 5 minutes to come up with k! …………….. =_=" This post in my blog is nothing short of a no brainer. So do forgive me if you’re not one to condone such nonsense. Let’s hope i’ll have something to talk about soon…

It’s a good feeling to be occupied when you’re at home isn’t it? I am normally always as eager as beaver chewing away on a piece of wood (eager as a beaver?!) *laughs* to step out of my house and go out. Fortunately for me, I am quite occupied with myself these days at home. I bought 6 DVD’s to watch, 2 comprising of Superman 1-4 (3 in 1’s) and i borrowed the 2nd half of the fifth season of the series ‘Smallville’ from my cousin. On top of that, I also borrowed my friends X-Box to keep myself occupied, and as always, I have my computer to rely on. So there you have it. Everything I need to do in order not to remain bored awaits me in my home, sweet, home. At this point in time, a lot of you are probably thinking that I am wasting my time away doing nothing hence allowing myself to be free. True, but i’m going to Aussie soon, and once i reach down under, i’m gonna have to start racking my brains when exams are near, and start feeling the pressure and stress again. So, i’ve chosen to relax and as we Malaysian would term it, "lepak". Yah mar, once i start work, there’ll be no time for all this already… Okok, perhaps i’m consoling myself, but I want to relax without any stress…. so there… the decision is and always has been final, unless Mother and Father Teoh step into the picture and start nagging me everyday lar. Anyway, as i was saying, i’m rather well occupied at home these past few days, and it’s a good feeling, but yet, I still have the urge to go out. Hmmmm… I guess i’ll never be rid of this terrible habit now will I? BUT…. but…. but… i do come home earlier, with the knowledge that i have a lot of things to ‘layan’ at home, so that’s considered an improvement right? It’s like a dilemma. When you’re at home, you can’t wait to go out, but once you’re out, and that tired feeling sets in, you just think of your bed and air-cond. ArgHh… damn sad right? feeling stressed because i’m too free? *laughs* =") I’m getting older anyway, not any younger, so as i’ve said earlier, i’ll play till i can’t play anymore, and then adulthood… *Darth Vader theme" Muahahahaha, OK, i think i’ve blogged enough for today… duty calls… Smallville… i’m coming~~!! *runs downstairs to the living room*

I’ve just gotten back from my holiday from Pangkor Island. Reason as to why you, my dear blog readers, were not notified of this, was because i had no time to blog. Okok… i was negelcting my blog. But i’m back now to share my experience with you. I left on an early Friday morning by car. The trip there was excruciatingly painful. To reach the hotel in which my friends and I booked, it had to take a good 5 hours and 30 minutes. OK, maybe i’m exaggerating a little, but we left at 8.45 and when i checked my watch again, it was 2.15 and we were already in the hotel room at that point in time. I don’t know why, and i don’t want to know why, but i did take that long, but it was all worth it. The hotel in which we stayed in had a private beach. One whole strecth of approximately, 2-2.5km? The sand was soft, the wind breezy and the sun was shining down on the glistening clear waters of Pangkor Island. The hotel was relatively nice to stay in but for the fact that the rooms had a lot of flies in them. :s The buffet dinner we had on the 1st night and buffet breakfast on the 2nd day was mouth watering. They had waffles! I love waffles! I ate 6!Woops… yes yes… it was sinful of me… =") Anyway, our daily routine would be to wake up by 8, eat our delightfully tasty buffet breakfast.. and then jump into the pool. The pool was OK. Nothing special, except that it had a bar in the middle thus allowing you to have a drink while sitting in the pool. After jumping into the pool, we’d go to the sea and to have a dip. There, we’d walk the beach, look for hermit crabs, we played volleyball and beach soccer and… we saw big white jelly like jellyfish with tentacles that look like they could kill you with one sweep. :S  scary shit ok! Because of these jellyfish, in the sea, there were times when i would imagine a jellyfish floating somewhere around my legs waiting to sting me once it gets the right angle. I was slightly paranoid. Stupid damn !@#$%^ jellyfish! Besides all that though, it was really a relaxing and enjoyable experience. When the sun starts to set at about 6.30, hornbills would come to eat breadcrumbs prepared especially for monkeys and hornbills by the hotel. Hornbills are such fascinating creatures aren’t they? Monkeys… *sigh* monkeys, are such annoying frustrating irritating pests. But they did look rather cute when they were eating the breadcrumbs and peanuts. It was when they entered my room!! Damn 9 #$%^&* tulan! They took my maggi mee! Well, i’m lucky all they took was a packet of maggi and not the camera or handphone. How the monkey entered you ask? AHHh, thanks to the brilliant one and only L** T*** S*** (his name shall remain unspoken) He left my balcony door open for goodness’ sake… and what’s worse is that on the balcony door, there’s a sticker of a monkey opening a door and a line "Beware Of Monekys". ArghHh, oh well, the little fella only took some noodles so it’s alright. we could still laugh about it. Hahaha… what else… erm… Oh yes~~ we tried canoeing and it was extremely tiring to the arms. But it was fun, as the boat kept turning over *laughs* I had 2 other friends who ventured into the deep seas on a canoe… *laughs* At first, they moved with such enthusiasm and pace and they were just a tiny little speck from where i was standing after a while. But even from where i was standing, i suddenly head a voice "Woi, turn back lor!" Hahahahahaha!! And then you can see their canoe making a U-turn. Don’t play play. Quite scary ok when you go deep deep. So yah, a great holiday to get away from city life and just relax. I’m already starting to miss Pangkor. I guess it’s back to reality once more then aye?

Yesterday was a real drag. I worked for this MAHA event thingy, (MAHA is some pertanian,perternakan lar) at MARDI and MARDI mind you, is in serdang. The trip itself was already a long and boring drag, not to mention the stuffiness of it all in the bus and the people pushing and jostling their way around. Oh, we were advised not to drive coz it’d be damn jam so we, my friend and I, drove to bukit jalil station, and took a bus which brought us straight to MARDI. Upon reaching there, i had to go to my designated area where i was supposed to give out some flyers. Here’s the catch. I had an understanding that i was to give out 1,250 flyers, from the time span given which was 9.30am-8pm, @ RM150 per day. And yah… let me remind you yah… that the place was swarming with people, pakcik makcik semua… and you wouldn’t believe how big the place was unless you’ve seen it yourself. Gosh, you could put 10 football fields there and probably still have left over space, which is why they have buggies or shuttles to carry you around. Anyway, people there were pushing their way into the shuttles, the sun was blazing at a good 33 degrees at least, and to make things all the more "better", my immediate supervisor suddenly told me and my friend that we had to give out an extra 5,000 copies… =_=" So there we were, confused, hot, forlorn, frustrated and aghast at the sudden increase of flyers to be distributed. What happened then was, we went to look for our supervisor to have a word with him as to why we have to suddenly give out more flyers and whether we were going to get paid more. Now, some of you may think that we were being fussy and that jobs these days are hard to come by etc. etc. True, but in this case, there is a difference between a full time staff and a part time worker now isn’t there? As a full time staff, you’d have to do whatever is asked of you because you are being paid a fixed basic salary and you’re bound by contract to the company. In our case we were part time workers and we were told we were going to be paid this much from a certain time to a certain time, to distribute this amount of flyers and then we were given an option to accept or decline the job. With this understanding we accepted the job only to be told that there are changes, with NO increase in pay mind you… so basically, you’re working from 9.30am-8pm distributing 10,000 flyers for RM100. Hey, you know what, i don’t need money that badly, so i think i’ll just pass. And that’s exactly what i told my supervisor, but of course, in a professional approach. There were no raised voices whatsoever. And summore rite… i thought full day pay is RM150, and he did mention that full day pay would be higher mar (i worked for him previously for half day 7.30am-12pm at RM100) but then he said "150? who said anything about 150? 100 only larrr" And that was when i pulled the plug and said to him, "Thanks, but no thanks" 9.30-8 wor… 100 only wor… 10,000 flyers wor!!! So sorry, perhaps some of you may think i’m being fussy or whatever, but then yah… it’s hard to explain if you still don’t already understand where i’m coming from. Perhaps you should try working for him and then maybe you’d understand. You know something else, he actually had the nerve to say "you see those 2 girls? they also working for me what. They don’t complain also" Gavin : =_=" A-ber-duHhH! There could be a slight chance in heaven, just a really slight chance lar… maybe.. just maybe… IT’S BECAUSE I’M NOT AS STUPID AS THEM TO BE EXPLOITED BY YOU? But of course i didn’t tell him that lar, was tempted to though.. *laughs* Oh well, t’was a good experience to meet someone like him. Perhaps it’ll give me a greater insight as to the amount of weird people i’ll have to work and get along with next time.  Alls Well That Ends Well…

Those of you that have been following my blog posts will know that i’ve injured my shoulder about 2 months ago? Anyways, it still hurts! I was seeing this chinese massage doctor who actually worked wonders for my shoulder, but because of my stubborn attitude, i now face the consequences as such. During my last appointment with him, he told me to go back to him one last time, but i didn’t. The simple reason was because i had been going to him for like… 6 to 7 times already, and still he kept asking me to go back. Through my other friends’ past experiences, they told me that normally, you only go back 3 to 4 times max. Of course, a lot depends on the severity of the injury and all that, but I was basically influenced, by what my friends have told me thus my decision to not go back anymore. I know, i know, the doctor told me it was gonna be the last session and all, and what is one more session? I might as well go and get it over and done with right? Alas, as i have said earlier, my stubborn attitude has gotten me into this mess. Well, I wouldn’t really call it a mess, cause, I’m happy to say that my shoulder has healed, statiscally speaking, about a good 85%, but it still hurts at certain angles. The good thing is that the pain is already bearable, so i am able to play sports again and be my crazy whacky self. Downfall of it all is that, I fear for a long-term injury, which could come back to haunt me when i’m older. It probably is easing pass me now because i still have a lot of youth left in me *ahem* =p and my bones are still strong. Oh well, let’s just pray and hope the pain will go away for good sooner rather than later. Perhaps more exercise will do the trick? OoO! talking about exercise, I haven’t been on my diet plan for like.. a good 4-5 months now, and i haven’t been jogging for like.. 3 months now? I feel fat… but!! but… good news (well to me at least) is that i still weigh 73.5kg. And that’s good ok! Anyways, back to my shoulder, you guys think i should have gone for that last session? I mean, he could’ve asked me to go back again! You never know, but it’s over and done with. I could still call him to make another appointment though, but, i don’t think i will.

AHHh, I’ve just gotten back from a mamak somewhere relatively near to my house. I ate a maggi goreng double + telur mata kerbau. Thank God there aren’t any comma’s for me to share with you. *laughs* I didn’t have that good an appetite anyway. This is because…. it is now 6.40pm and i woke up at 5.00pm I hardly have any appetite in me when i’ve just awaken from my slumber. I don’t know if that’s the case with everybody else, but i hear that it’s quite common not to have an appetite just after waking up. Anyhow, i feel rejuvenated now as i slept at 11.00pm yesterday night and woke up at 5.00pm. This means i’ve had a total of 18 hours of sleep! Gosh… i didn’t know it was that long till just now… 18 hours… sheesh.. *sheepish grin* but…!! but….. but… you cannot blame me now can you? I had no sleep at all the day before yesterday. Hah! So i actually went 29 hours without sleep! And… 29 hours of no sleep minus 18 hours of sleep is…. 11 hours of activities…. so it’s ok… i guess. Okok, i shall stop blabbering now. Uh-oh, i just yawned… =_+" sleep anyone? 

I started work 2 days ago, and it felt good to work once again or at least make myself feel productive. It’s much better than lazing around and making yourself feel like a bum day in day out. As good as it felt working again though, I was and still am extremely tired. My working hours were short but they start at like.. 7am?! This means i have to wake up at 5.45-6am at the latest. To add to such an award winning working hour, (7am!!!!??? :S) my sleeping hours as it is are really upside down. This is probably due to the fact that I’ve been free for the past month or so and i tend to sleep really late and wake up like… sometime in the evening? *sheepish grin* Anyway, because i start work at 7am and don’t sleep till about 6am…. i was in a dilemma which resulted in yours truly not getting any shuteye for the past 2 days. Thank God working hours were only from 7am-12pm which meant that i could come home after work and get some rest. And that’s exactly what i did…. yesterday. The day before yesterday though, when work finished at 12, i stayed out, went back home at about 3-4pm, watched tv, went online etc. ate my dinner at 8pm and went for futsal at 11pm and played till 2am! I came home, bathed, watched a dvd and left my house for work at 6.30am. Hmmmm this may all be a little confusing what with all the times and pms’ and ams’ but basically… basically…. i’m really worn out now! But yet… I can’t sleep! It’s 7am on a Saturday morning mind you and i can’t sleep! It’s probably due to my activities over the past 2 days. I have this, irritated, frustrated, negative kinda overwhelming vibe in me at this point in time… =\ I’m tired and i can’t sleep… and… you know what’s gonna happen? I’m probably gonna stay up till about 12 or 1pm, which by then, i’ll regretfully start feeling sleepy and i’ll sleep and wake up at 8 or 9pm! The clock sudah terbalik lor~~!! Really really zhok tulan. Pardon the language, but you’d be frustrated and exapserated too if you were tired and couldn’t sleep… right? Anyways, work was good, except for the part it played in turning my already ‘upside-down-timing’ biological clock even more ‘upside down’ (Was that gramatically correct?) *laughs* =_=" I’m off to do….. something now, i don’t know what yet, but… something… cherioz peeps! *walks sullenly downstairs to the tv*