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*kicks a football - - - THUD-KRANG*  "Excuse me? Can you throw my ball back over please?" *little girl with huge specs looks at small boy with huge specs* This was the 1st time i met my dear neighbour Jo. At that point in time, we just knew that we lived behind each other and just the occasional smile and "Hi there" kinda look. No further interaction was made. Not until both of us reached our teens. If i remember properly, we were 16 and 15 respectively, yours truly being the elder of the two. As we all know, there comes a time in our young lives that we will start to interact more with the opposite sex in hopes of getting that thrill and excitement kinda feel; basically, flirting. I still remember, i messaged this girl in MIRC (chat room of the past) named Joanne. We got to talking and all and then one day, i asked her where she lived and the conversation as best as my memory can serve me went as such :  Gavin: Where do you live?
Joanne: Subang
Gavin: Which part?
Joanne: SS19
Gavin: SS19?! That’s where i live too. Which road?
Joanne: 19/* (The road shall not be revealed)
Gavin: That’s the road behind my road i think
Joanne: Really?

We got each others’ house numbers down and were wondering where exactly it was. We knew then we were staying behind each other but it never occured to either one of us that we’d seen each other before in our younger days, and i’m talking 10-12 years old. Then we started describing our houses to each other, and then she asked me "Do you have a basketball rimb in your garden? And a black dog?" I went "errrr yah wor…" We then agreed to go out to the back of our houses to meet each other and see if we were really staying directly behind each other. Problem was, everytime i went out and waited, she hadn’t reached yet and i would go in. So this routine went on for about 2-3 rounds (we strongly believed that we were definitely staying behind each other) until, finally we managed to catch each other in the backyard of our houses. I saw her and i said "Joanne?" She said "Yup! Hi" That was the start of "The Windows Of Love" *laughs* Inside joke.. Basically, we got to know each other pretty well, she was schooling in an ss18 school while i was in an ss14 school, which is in the subang district. To cut a long story short, we became pretty close friends, after a few rifts here and there. Those rifts are a bit complicated and can potentially be a long yet interesting topic to discuss, but i’ll leave it at that. Hehe Why i’m only typing about my dear neighbour now? We saw each other on a relatively frequent basis up till the time when she had to further her studies overseas. At that point in time, i was already 20. Or was it 21? Thereafter, we’d only see each other everytime she came back for a holiday and it was few and far between. She just came back to M’sia not too long ago and I just went out with her again earlier in the day and it feels that the older both of us get, the more occupied we are with our own things and that leaves us with barely enough time to catch up. In short, we grew distant. She though, told me that it had been long but she still feels that we are close enough to talk about stuff we used to talk about and that was a relief. I’m glad we went out as it probably re-emphasized our friendship. With all that said, I’m feeling rather sad still. The fact is, we’ve grown distant, though maybe still close, but not like before. In time, we will probably grow more distant as distance can prove to be such a barrier when it comes to relationships. And the saddest part of it all is, she isn’t my neighbour anymore. After 20 years of being neighbours, the windows of love have finally been shut for good. She has moved to bukit rimau and that saddens me. *boo-hoo* :’( I guess this post is just to let people know that she is the only girl that i can say is a true friend to me, and not one that i have alternative motives for nor she. Personally, this kinda relationship to me, does not come by very often; friends of the opposite sex really being JUST friends.. and close ones at that for it is in a guy’s and girl’s nature to flirt with the opposite sex, but not me and Jo. We’re now like bro and sis. Of course, intially, when we first met, i was flirting here and there and all lar, but i’m saying after all that’s been said and done, and after so many years, my dear Jo and me are still going strong as friends. As cliché as it sounds, life goes on and it can go on, but she will always be someone special to me, my dear Joanne, my dear neighbour… :`)

FuwaHhH~~ gila emo man this post… *knocks head* I need to hit reality… Hahaha, nolar Jo, you know i meant every word *hugz*

My laptop arrived last week and it is looking mighty fine and dandy people! Actually, there’s nothing special about it. Hahaha, normal laptop, not very gaya specs also… =_=" but, a laptop nonetheless. My mum said it’s supposed to be some high tech kinda laptop. Don’t know what processor, don’t know what ram etc. computer terms lar… and yes, i’m rather computer illiterate… *laughs* =") Anyway, it’s been getting a lot of my love and attention for the past few days but sadly, it’s brought me to sheer dismay and frustration as there is a problem with the connection (Streamyx $%^*!!) thus a continous fluctuation with the network’s connection. I may be computer illiterate, but i guess even a fool would know that a bad connection doesn’t mean that the computer, or in this case the laptop, has a problem. Why i feel frustrated then? Because it’s a new laptop and everything is supposed to be working properly! I know it has nothing to do with my laptop being spoilt, but the stubborn part of me tells my brain to feel frustrated so i do. So there. =P This baby of mine will be given my undivided attention and in return, it’ll be but my best companion when i end up feeling lonely or miserable in Australia. I already see the start of a bright and happy future with me and my laptop. *laughs* Oh.. and it’s a DELL. I’m not too sure what are the good and bad brands, but it seems this brand isn’t all that bad, from what i’ve heard lar… What do you, my dear blog readers and friends think? Let me know. If we hurry, maybe i can give it back to DELL and buy a recommended brand from you guys. Hehehehe =)

It’s 2007 and it’s a new year. Sadly though, it’s still the same me. Well, maybe it isn’t that sad. I kind of love myself the way i am now. And No! I’m not a narcisist, rather i just love me for me… As simple as that. Life has been good for me thus far. I get to have late nights, and i don’t do much but eat sleep and play. I hardly have any work to do these days as well, so that makes me more of a lazy couch potato i guess, which i do enjoy being by the way! I’ve been playing this online game that I recently got addicted to. it’s called Super Dancer Online, and I don’t know why, but i’ve grown to have a liking for the game. I won’t go into detail about what the game is, but just so you know, this game takes up about, easily….. 5-6 hours of my time on average, per day. Maybe more. Yikes! =_= I hardly play Dota anymore; the famous strategy game that almost every Tom, Dick & Harry are playing as this game takes up all my computer time. Computer games aside, i am also wathcing a lot of DVDs and TV shows recently. OoO American Idol season 6 is here and today was the 1st episode! I’m a total American Idol follower. It seemed like i was waiting for ages for season 6 to hit Malaysian TVs, but it’s finally here, so not so boring Wednesday and Thursday nights for the next few months. Of course, I have taken into account that I will be flying off to Aussie next month, which means I might not be able to follow the series on TV. Alas, the wonders of the internet and the availability for one to DOWNLOAD episodes of TV shows relieves me of my worrying that I won’t be able to follow American Idol anymore. Muahahaha! Ok, so basically, I’m enjoying the everyday activities of my life sinfully, for i shall not be able to do this once i come back with a degree, for that would mean… *drum roll* working life…. =S On the brighter side though, that would means I’d have hit stage 2 of my life succesfully.. i think..? hahaha OK peeps, i gotta sign off now.. take care all, cheeriooz~!

I met up with some of my old high school mates tonight at Yuen Steamboat in Sunway, and it was a rather nerve wrecking ordeal for many reasons; reasons that i can’t even explain. Well, perhaps i can explain them, but choose not to. (I’m a complicated individual, spare me) Other than that though, the night was a rather…. borderline enjoyable night i’d say. Borderline because there were so many people, and they each had their own clicks, i didn’t even have time to talk to some of them. In all honesty though, there were some that i was never really that close to in high school, yet i managed to have a decent conversation with them. What everyone talked about..? Well, i speak for the table i sat in, but i can almost speculate that every other table had this topic as the majority of their conversation, which was "what are you doing now? studying or working?" or "OHh what line/field are you in?" Don’t get me wrong, these questions are fine. In fact, after so many years, they sort of become "pick-up" lines to start conversations. The problem then, lies in the fact that these conversations do not go beyond that for some of us. It’s like, when there’s nothing more to ask about what each individual is currently pursuing in their lives, the conversation goes stale… for some of us, not all. In spite of all this though, as i had said earlier, a decent conversation was still manageable. So there you have it; my reason as to why i deem the night a borderline enjoyable night. On the brighter side though, it was just fun to see old faces and do some catching up, to see the changes in people’s behaviour, attitude, and also how they’ve changed physically. It was also fun guessing the names of those i had forgotten and i wasn’t alone ok! There were others who couldn’t remember names as well. I kept asking a closer friend of mine the names of people that walked in if i couldn’t remember. I feel bad… I even got caught red handed as this guy approached me, shook my hand and said "Hi Gavin, how are you?" And i was just blur. I remember his face but i couldn’t remember his name. The most sheepish look you will ever see on Gavin’s face was revealed at that point in time. In the end, he had to tell me his name, and then my brain was like "oh yaHhH~!" thus sending signals and messages to my hand and body movements. You know when you’ve forgotten something, and you finally remember it, you’re like "oh yaHh!" with the hand movements and all? Yah, something like that. Lame I know, but nonetheless, i was helpless at that point in time. Eugene, i shall remember you along with your name, and will never forget it again! *drama* What else? The food! I hardly ate anything though as i was busy talking. Yes my dear Huey Ling, that is me hardly eating. I know it seems like a lot, but it’s nothing compared to my usual. (Sorry, inside joke) Anyways, i hardly ate anything, and the food there wasn’t really anything to shout about. The company was what made the food taste better i guess. I spent most of the night with just a few friends though, as i’ve mentioned earlier, everybody had their own clicks. After steamboat, we went to this pub in the curve, called… Laundry? Geez, i don’t even know if i spelt it correctly? I’m so out-dated into this "clubbing/pubbing" lifestyle these days. *laughs* Not everyone could make it though. Almost half went their own ways after dinner, so there were only the remaining half. Over there, the same thing again, but with a different environment. We just talked, caught up on old times, I had literally 2 sips of beer and then the night ended. Well, Rohan, Sud, Lee Sun and myself left at the same time as we were in one car, but according to Wee Nee, we set the mood for the night to end so everybody left after we did. So, Rohan, Sud, Lee Sun, we’re supposed to feel bad ok! Hahaha Nah, they wanted to go back already anyway lar. So there, a reunion of a few old faces, with rejuvenated friendships……. i guess…  =_=" Wee Nee says we should do this more often, and more often we shall do this then! But till the day we meet again, I wish all you guys that i spent time with tonight God’s blessings in any of your future undertakings! SMSJ BOLEH! duh-uh.. =_=" ………… Till the next reunion/gathering! =)

It never really did set in, the fact that I’m about to go to Australia to further my studies. But as time passes, my date of departure grows seemingly closer and I’m starting to have a slight fear if i may. Fear because i’m stepping into a foreign land not knowing anything about their culture. Fear because I don’t have my mum or dad to be there for me anymore. Whenever i had problems, i always turned to my parents, but over there, I have but myself. Well, i do have my girlfriend, but she too will be stepping foot into a foreign land by herself for the 1st time. Basically, we  only have each other and in all honesty, I’m not so sure if that’s good enough. True, she is rather resourceful, and one can depend on her to take charge of situations, but she’s going to be with me! And if you must know, i’m quite a handful which in turn will make her task as being the decision maker if you like, or the one in charge that little bit more difficult. *sheepish look* =") My greatest fear is of course, the fact that she, my girlfriend and I, will be staying together for the 1st time for 1 whole year…. It’s like being married, and I’m not so sure if that’s so healthy at such a tender and young age. *sigh* I do believe she and I will pull through though, but I will need God’s guidance and help and you, my fellow friends and blog readers, I will need your prayers. Ok… enough about that. Let’s side track a little shall we? Christmas was good, though i’ll never be able to re-live the days of my childhood during christmas. Those were the days… the joy and happiness of it all was just so much more…. meaningful I guess. Now that I’m older, I still feel the aura of joy and love in the air, but in a different way, you know what i mean? i guess when you’re a child, certain things are meant to be different. New year’s! New year’s was…. how would i put it? Erm… New year’s was not that enjoyable actually. I went to sunway for the countdown and there were people there, with the usual countdown and fireworks happening and all, but it all just wasn’t good enough I’d say. To make matters worse, at about 12.15am after the countdown, i got stuck in a people jam… there’s this bridge linking sunway pyramid and the housing area of sunway together and that particular bridge was jam packed with people jostling their way through to get back to their cars. You see, a lot of people parked across the road of Sunway Pyramid as did my friends and I for parking inside pyramid would’ve been total disaster as before you could even enter the parking lot, you’d already be lining up wayYYy back. Anyway, as i was saying, the bridge was packed with people going up and some coming down so there basically was a 2-way-traffic kinda thing going on there. It took me a good half an hour to reach the other side of the bridge. Silly thing is, I’ve been stuck in these kinda things before when i was a little younger, say… 16 or 17? And i told myself then, "I don’t think I’ll ever come to these kinda events again. it’s so hot and stuffy, and you got all sorts of people around you and in the end of it all, you get frustrated" But I guess i’ve not learnt my lesson now have i? Ok… ok, i’m sure some of you are thinking that these kinda things happen only once a year so what’s the big fuss about getting jammed in a pack of people once in a blue moon or feeling hot and stuffy? I guess you’re right, but personally, i’d prefer not to. Well, let’s just say, it depends on who i’m going with and whether i feel like it at that point in time or not. It’s hot and stuffy and your whole bodyu feels sticky! Hmmm, by the by, do i sound metro-sexual? Some have deemed me as such… okok i’ll stop blabbering… so there, my christmas and new year’s compiled into one blog post. Short and sweet. And i’m going to Aussie soon! I have that butterflys in your stomach kinda feeling now even as i type this… =S but i shall go forth with faith and i shall be victorious in the war for that piece of paper, no matter what obstacles may stand in my way! That includes not having my parents around, and not being able to eat nasi lemak, or maggi goreng! OOo, let’s hope i don’t get too tempted by the food over there and return to Malaysia like a ball now shall we? *laughs* XD