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Yesterday was a real drag. I worked for this MAHA event thingy, (MAHA is some pertanian,perternakan lar) at MARDI and MARDI mind you, is in serdang. The trip itself was already a long and boring drag, not to mention the stuffiness of it all in the bus and the people pushing and jostling their way around. Oh, we were advised not to drive coz it’d be damn jam so we, my friend and I, drove to bukit jalil station, and took a bus which brought us straight to MARDI. Upon reaching there, i had to go to my designated area where i was supposed to give out some flyers. Here’s the catch. I had an understanding that i was to give out 1,250 flyers, from the time span given which was 9.30am-8pm, @ RM150 per day. And yah… let me remind you yah… that the place was swarming with people, pakcik makcik semua… and you wouldn’t believe how big the place was unless you’ve seen it yourself. Gosh, you could put 10 football fields there and probably still have left over space, which is why they have buggies or shuttles to carry you around. Anyway, people there were pushing their way into the shuttles, the sun was blazing at a good 33 degrees at least, and to make things all the more "better", my immediate supervisor suddenly told me and my friend that we had to give out an extra 5,000 copies… =_=" So there we were, confused, hot, forlorn, frustrated and aghast at the sudden increase of flyers to be distributed. What happened then was, we went to look for our supervisor to have a word with him as to why we have to suddenly give out more flyers and whether we were going to get paid more. Now, some of you may think that we were being fussy and that jobs these days are hard to come by etc. etc. True, but in this case, there is a difference between a full time staff and a part time worker now isn’t there? As a full time staff, you’d have to do whatever is asked of you because you are being paid a fixed basic salary and you’re bound by contract to the company. In our case we were part time workers and we were told we were going to be paid this much from a certain time to a certain time, to distribute this amount of flyers and then we were given an option to accept or decline the job. With this understanding we accepted the job only to be told that there are changes, with NO increase in pay mind you… so basically, you’re working from 9.30am-8pm distributing 10,000 flyers for RM100. Hey, you know what, i don’t need money that badly, so i think i’ll just pass. And that’s exactly what i told my supervisor, but of course, in a professional approach. There were no raised voices whatsoever. And summore rite… i thought full day pay is RM150, and he did mention that full day pay would be higher mar (i worked for him previously for half day 7.30am-12pm at RM100) but then he said "150? who said anything about 150? 100 only larrr" And that was when i pulled the plug and said to him, "Thanks, but no thanks" 9.30-8 wor… 100 only wor… 10,000 flyers wor!!! So sorry, perhaps some of you may think i’m being fussy or whatever, but then yah… it’s hard to explain if you still don’t already understand where i’m coming from. Perhaps you should try working for him and then maybe you’d understand. You know something else, he actually had the nerve to say "you see those 2 girls? they also working for me what. They don’t complain also" Gavin : =_=" A-ber-duHhH! There could be a slight chance in heaven, just a really slight chance lar… maybe.. just maybe… IT’S BECAUSE I’M NOT AS STUPID AS THEM TO BE EXPLOITED BY YOU? But of course i didn’t tell him that lar, was tempted to though.. *laughs* Oh well, t’was a good experience to meet someone like him. Perhaps it’ll give me a greater insight as to the amount of weird people i’ll have to work and get along with next time.  Alls Well That Ends Well…

Those of you that have been following my blog posts will know that i’ve injured my shoulder about 2 months ago? Anyways, it still hurts! I was seeing this chinese massage doctor who actually worked wonders for my shoulder, but because of my stubborn attitude, i now face the consequences as such. During my last appointment with him, he told me to go back to him one last time, but i didn’t. The simple reason was because i had been going to him for like… 6 to 7 times already, and still he kept asking me to go back. Through my other friends’ past experiences, they told me that normally, you only go back 3 to 4 times max. Of course, a lot depends on the severity of the injury and all that, but I was basically influenced, by what my friends have told me thus my decision to not go back anymore. I know, i know, the doctor told me it was gonna be the last session and all, and what is one more session? I might as well go and get it over and done with right? Alas, as i have said earlier, my stubborn attitude has gotten me into this mess. Well, I wouldn’t really call it a mess, cause, I’m happy to say that my shoulder has healed, statiscally speaking, about a good 85%, but it still hurts at certain angles. The good thing is that the pain is already bearable, so i am able to play sports again and be my crazy whacky self. Downfall of it all is that, I fear for a long-term injury, which could come back to haunt me when i’m older. It probably is easing pass me now because i still have a lot of youth left in me *ahem* =p and my bones are still strong. Oh well, let’s just pray and hope the pain will go away for good sooner rather than later. Perhaps more exercise will do the trick? OoO! talking about exercise, I haven’t been on my diet plan for like.. a good 4-5 months now, and i haven’t been jogging for like.. 3 months now? I feel fat… but!! but… good news (well to me at least) is that i still weigh 73.5kg. And that’s good ok! Anyways, back to my shoulder, you guys think i should have gone for that last session? I mean, he could’ve asked me to go back again! You never know, but it’s over and done with. I could still call him to make another appointment though, but, i don’t think i will.

AHHh, I’ve just gotten back from a mamak somewhere relatively near to my house. I ate a maggi goreng double + telur mata kerbau. Thank God there aren’t any comma’s for me to share with you. *laughs* I didn’t have that good an appetite anyway. This is because…. it is now 6.40pm and i woke up at 5.00pm I hardly have any appetite in me when i’ve just awaken from my slumber. I don’t know if that’s the case with everybody else, but i hear that it’s quite common not to have an appetite just after waking up. Anyhow, i feel rejuvenated now as i slept at 11.00pm yesterday night and woke up at 5.00pm. This means i’ve had a total of 18 hours of sleep! Gosh… i didn’t know it was that long till just now… 18 hours… sheesh.. *sheepish grin* but…!! but….. but… you cannot blame me now can you? I had no sleep at all the day before yesterday. Hah! So i actually went 29 hours without sleep! And… 29 hours of no sleep minus 18 hours of sleep is…. 11 hours of activities…. so it’s ok… i guess. Okok, i shall stop blabbering now. Uh-oh, i just yawned… =_+" sleep anyone? 

I started work 2 days ago, and it felt good to work once again or at least make myself feel productive. It’s much better than lazing around and making yourself feel like a bum day in day out. As good as it felt working again though, I was and still am extremely tired. My working hours were short but they start at like.. 7am?! This means i have to wake up at 5.45-6am at the latest. To add to such an award winning working hour, (7am!!!!??? :S) my sleeping hours as it is are really upside down. This is probably due to the fact that I’ve been free for the past month or so and i tend to sleep really late and wake up like… sometime in the evening? *sheepish grin* Anyway, because i start work at 7am and don’t sleep till about 6am…. i was in a dilemma which resulted in yours truly not getting any shuteye for the past 2 days. Thank God working hours were only from 7am-12pm which meant that i could come home after work and get some rest. And that’s exactly what i did…. yesterday. The day before yesterday though, when work finished at 12, i stayed out, went back home at about 3-4pm, watched tv, went online etc. ate my dinner at 8pm and went for futsal at 11pm and played till 2am! I came home, bathed, watched a dvd and left my house for work at 6.30am. Hmmmm this may all be a little confusing what with all the times and pms’ and ams’ but basically… basically…. i’m really worn out now! But yet… I can’t sleep! It’s 7am on a Saturday morning mind you and i can’t sleep! It’s probably due to my activities over the past 2 days. I have this, irritated, frustrated, negative kinda overwhelming vibe in me at this point in time… =\ I’m tired and i can’t sleep… and… you know what’s gonna happen? I’m probably gonna stay up till about 12 or 1pm, which by then, i’ll regretfully start feeling sleepy and i’ll sleep and wake up at 8 or 9pm! The clock sudah terbalik lor~~!! Really really zhok tulan. Pardon the language, but you’d be frustrated and exapserated too if you were tired and couldn’t sleep… right? Anyways, work was good, except for the part it played in turning my already ‘upside-down-timing’ biological clock even more ‘upside down’ (Was that gramatically correct?) *laughs* =_=" I’m off to do….. something now, i don’t know what yet, but… something… cherioz peeps! *walks sullenly downstairs to the tv*

It’s 1.30am and i’ve just gotten home. I’m starting work tomorrow and i’ll have to wake up about… say… 6am? =_=" I’m having a slight dilemma now as to whether i should sleep or not. I haven’t even bathed yet and by the time i bathe and my hair dries, it’ll probably be 2.30am and by the time i doze off it’ll probably be 3am hence, i’ll only get about 3 hours of rest. I’ll feel terribly dizzy and tired should i manage to sleep at 3 and wake up at 6 which is why i’m still thinking about whether i should hit the sack or not. Imagine not sleeping and starting work at 7am! Geez.. and to top it all off, i have to work on Friday as well. *Warcry* -_-’ Well, knowing me, i’ll probably bathe after i’ve finished writing in my blog, make myself some food, and start to watch a dvd, until it’s 6am… and i’ll probably resemble something close to a zombie the next morning. Oh well, dilemma smilemma. I’ve probably made up my mind. Hahaha, I’m off to shower now. Pray i don’t overexert my already overexerted body. *what??* Okok, it’s getting late… cherioz~!

I was just sitting down the other day at home, staring at the ceiling and thinking about life… (yes yes, i have nothing better to do currently so i bum around at home =P) and i was just smiling to myself as i thought of my youngers years. Well, i can hardly remember most of my childhood times, only a mere few, but i was really focusing more on my younger teenage years., say… age 13-17, high school years actually and i was just remembering how much more fun life was at that point in time. My daily schedule would be to wake up early, get ready, and be driven by my mum to school and i never really did dread waking up early during my high school years mind you. I guess it was because school was fun. I’m sure most of us would agree what with the current lifestyles we lead now such as college studies and for some of us, working responsibilities. In school, it’s like everywhere you turn, there’s a familiar face, and you are actually schoolmates for a good 5 years, some maybe more if we take into account the fact that some already knew each other since their primary days. I guess it was especially more relaxed and fun for me because i was quite a rascal in school. The ponteng sessions from class, or running from a spotcheck, reaching school and running out straight away the moment my mum turned her back on me and going to those illegal gambling and snooker centres, aHhh that was the life. It was fun really and don’t any of you dare say you guys weren’t the same. Maybe till a different extent, but nonetheless, the same, right? In school, because everybody knew each other, interacting with the opposite sex wasn’t dificult either. In college, it’s like, you wanna get to know this guy or girl, but they’re from a different class thus a barrier is formed and you have to pluck up enough courage to approach them. Little details like these really make a lot of difference to how much more relaxed and fun one’s lifestyle can be. Wouldn’t you agree?

Somtimes i would go to school, line up for perhimpunan, go to class, and sleep until recess, wake up eat, go back to class on a full stomach, and sleep again until the bell rings. Having said all that though, i guess if i hadn’t woken up and continued to lead such a carefree and couldn’t care less kinda lifestyle, i wouldn’t be where i am today. I’m not saying i’ve reached really great heights but at least i’ve finished my diploma, and that’s a great feat for me i’d say considering that i’m one lazy person. When the realization of college life kicked in, i knew i had to pull up my socks and buck up, and with all the pulling and bucking up, came the realization of how high one’s responsibility will be as people grow older. As it is now, in college, a student has a responsibility of making sure he/she passes every term and graduates or risk wasting their parents’ money. And we’re talking say, RM150,000 inclusive of an overseas education. That’s a lot of money! After we graduate, we start working and then more responsibilites are at hand. So yah, childhood days were the most relaxing, primary schooldays were fun, but nothing beats highschool days. Highschool = First relationship with the opposite sex, excitement, relaxation, joy, tears, immature conversations(haha), fun, fun and more fun!

Now though, all i can do is sit back, stare at the ceiling, and start reminiscing on my schooldays. I can’t ever go back to those days. It’s just nostalgia….

How many times have i heard this phrase, “Love over Money”. I was just thinking, whether this phrase holds any water at all. A lot of my friends have the perception that with money, everything else will fall into place. This includes, girls, fame, fun, no worries etc. Not wanting to portray that I stand out in opinion from them, i believe that love first and foremost, is an irreplacable feeling as well as a feeling that can’t be bought, hence my believe in the phrase “Love Over Money”. I have people always telling me, “Aiyah, you got money, which girl also come to you larr… you fat and ugly also but you got money, you can get model lar!” True. In fact, it’s very true that with money, you can buy almost anything, but not everything. Those who know me, will know that I am a very emotional kinda person, in a sense that when it comes to BGRs, i believe that the element of Love has to be there. Some may think me foolish to have such beliefs in the real and cruel world. Then again, whose to say what the definition of Love is? To each its own i guess. So to me, that special magic moment has to be there when you talk about relationships, and money can’t buy you that moment. Perhaps some of you at this point in time are saying to yourselves that i have made a lame and dumb, stupid even, statement. But i believe some of you know what i’m talking about as most of us, dare i speculate, have been through that special magic moment. The moment when the world ceases to exist, and all you have are each other, staring into each other’s eyes.It could be the kiss, or just the laughs, or whatever, but that moment, is the one moment you cannot buy even with all the money in the world. It’s a sincere feeling coming in from both ways and you know when the feeling is present. Sure, with money, the girl could act like that special moment is happening every other minute, but embedded deep within our hearts, we all know whether the feelings are real or fake. To the ladies that are reading this, please do not think i have a perception that all women only think of money and are easily bought. That is not what i think. Though i am not a girl, i do think and if i may dare say, KNOW for a fact that girls would like their boyfriends or husbands to be able to buy them whatever they want. Most girls, if not all. Please correct me if i’m wrong and i shall stand corrected. Having said that, to re-emphasize how i feel about women, i know that money can’t buy your love now can it? I know that in a guy, there are so many more qualities you look for other than money. For the guy to be rich would be a super bonus, but there are qualms about dating a rich guy isn’t there? So there. I do hope i have not offended anyone of you. I’m just sharing my thoughts. Finally, I’d just like to say that everybody is money minded. We are only human. But to those that believe in money and money alone, i still respect your beliefs and values. Like i said, to each its own. Everybody has their own opinion. I’ve shared mine… Love Over Money

It has come to my knowledge that i have passed my Computer Graphics exam. If you go back a few posts, you’ll know how dissapointed i was about failing this subject the 1st time i sat for it, how this was the ONLY subject that had not allowed me to graduate hence i was not able to graduate with my classmates, etc bla bla bla. But as of this moment, i have graduated! Yay~! *tears of joy* I have finally amounted to something in life. I’ve always only fooled around, and never took my studies seriously. Go back a few posts again and you’ll find that i’ve phrased this sentence before. Right now, i’m relieved that i am no longer a burden to my parents in a sense that i have fulfilled my responsibility as a student. Well, momentarily at least. I’ll be flying to Australia soon and yet again, the hopes and dreams of my parents for me will be placed in my 2 hands. I’ll be doing a degree this time, but i think the fact that I’ve learned the importance of studies has and will work to my advantage. Tis’ truly a joy to have obtained that piece of paper. Though it is only a diploma, i still feel, how would you say….productive, if i may. As for now, i shall be working for a short while in events. The type that pays you a rather high sum of money for you to work your a** off. I don’t want to look for an advertising agency or event company, or production company, etc. because i’d think it unfair for me to quit SHOULD i be offered a job lar, after 2 to 3 months. *sheesh* I’m talking as if i’ll definitely get a job. Serious mar… such a short time, i’d rather work in a ‘run-you-down, make sure your legs are wobbly by the end of the day, back aching, cing cong ceh i’m gonna’ fry you upside down, kami kaze, earth shattering, tiring event job that pays a high amount of money. Anyway, I’ve done it! I’ve graduated! Thank you all for your prayers and for believing in me! (I’m quite dramatic aren’t I?) hehe, Just remember, you can move mountains if you set your mind to it, with help from God of course. Cheers peeps~!

It’s Nov 2006 and it seems like only yesterday that i finished high school in 2002. Time really flies. 2 more months to go and we’ll hit 2007, more of us will be working, more of us would have entered college, more of us would have gone overseas and some of us are getting ready to be married. (Married?!!) =Þ As we reach the end of the year, schedules of most individuals tend to get more and more hectic i’d say. Take me for example, *found an excuse to share my thoughts* (muaahahaha!!) I have to go shopping for winter wear as some of you know, i’m going down under, I have to get my eyes checked again to see if my eyesight has gotten worse (it probably has, so i’ll have to increase my power again), make a new pair of specs and order about 12 pairs of disposable contact lenses, i have to shop for a present for Sue - Ann’s mum, Sue Ann’s sister, my sister and Christmas shopping! On top of all that, I have to work in the next 2 weeks, and thereafter i’m going to Penang for a holiday. So there. The only thing i can be grateful for is that I do not have anymore exams or assigntments which means ‘muccho mucho lesso stresso no?’ Financially speaking though, t’wud be a little heavy on the pockets, but Christmas time is the time of giving isn’t it? And so are people’s birthdays. Darn it! Do I have to be such a nice guy? *laughs* NaHh~~ i’m bad, i’m bad, you know it! Okay… getting off topic here… OoOh, OoHh, by the by, Justin Lo is coming down on Christmas Eve!! Christmas Eve!!! Can you believe it? Why Christmas Eve? I HAVE to be home. I celebrate Christmas and Christmas Eve! *plays Justin’s ‘Hou Yan’ and looks down* Oh well, I guess for me, it’s just that time of the year again….

I was never really excited about going on camping trips, or jungle walks, rock climbing bla bla bla, you get the picture right? Basically anything that will cover your body with mud, leeches, sweat, pain and fatigue. Not until yesterday. Well, i still don’t jump at the idea of these kinda places, but Sungai Gabai was a totally different experience. It’s nothing really special really. Just another waterfall with the works; clear & cold (really really cold) water, flat stones, greenery etc. What made my trip there worthwhile was the fact that you could slide down the rocks! I’m sure everybody’s thinking “how can you slide down the rocks? They’re sharp and edgy” But they aren’t my dear friends. Well, some of them are, but where you can slide down, the rocks are as smooth as a baby’s bottom. So my friends and I slid down the rocks doing stupid stunts, some would say dangerous even. We rolled down, surfed down, grabbed each other and slid down; you’d think we’d be too old for this kinda thing. I though, was slightly more conservative because i injured my shoulder a few weeks back and it still hadn’t healed 100%. Nevertheless~ i still had a lot of fun. The only dissapointment was some of the people there. The fact that they bathe in the water is already a rather disgusting enough thought, but they had to go and pollute the water more by washing their dishes in the water. Correct me if i’m wrong since i’m not a local there, but that IS pollution isn’t it? I mean, there are toilets to wash your hands and dishes in, so why do that? Perhaps it is normal to do that, but it is rather revolting wouldn’t you say? Personally, i think so. =S All in all though, a really refreshing trip and good experience. I’m still not very excited about these kinda places, but Sungai Gabai has given me an improved perception. Cheers! =)