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Throughout my 2 and a half years of studies in IACT (Institute Advertising Communications Training), I dare say that these 2 and a half years have been my most productive years of studying. For the 1st time in my life, I had learned the importance of getting that piece of paper. Term after term, assignment after assignment, exams after exams, i got through them all, (with the help and inspiration from my ever so supportive girlfriend) not failing any subject, but for one. The dreaded CG (Computer Graphics). It was a term 1 subject mind you, and in my 1st term, I was still a little wayward in my ways. I still played a lot and ‘ponteng’ classes here and there. But CG, was just the subject i hated the most in term 1, which meant an extra special place in my heart for this subject. Special in a sense that i had reserved more ponteng sessions for this class, and paid close to NO attention at all in this class. The result, an F when my results came out. I passed my other subjects then, well, not with flying colours, but respectable results i’d say. From term 2 onwards, the pressure piled, but with the pressure came more determination for making something out of myself for once and not dissapointing my parents anymore. I never looked back and went on all the way to my final term which i got through as well. It was a sad day for me when the college reminded me that i had to re-take the subject. They informed me that i wouldn’t be able to make it for my convo because it was just too late. I now live to regret the day that i didn’t hurry up and re-take this darned subject. And to think that i’m majoring in marketing and not the creative side. *sigh* Oh well, college policies…. As it is now, I’m currently re-taking the dreaded CG class, and I have only a week left till my final exam. This time around of course, I’m more prepared and i was serious in class. I mean, you would be too, if all that stood between you and that piece of paper was ONE subject! Anyway, i’ve learned to have a little more liking for the subject as after paying attention in class and understanding how everything is done, designing an image out with a creative element can be rather fun. Alas, as mentioned earlier, i am a marketing student, and i still lack confidence going into the exam. So, do pray for me guys, that i will pass the paper, and that i will know how to do what is given to me. I only have… one hurdle left…

As I ponder upon my life now, I stop to think that I’m already 22 years old and i’m growing up really fast. The realization hits me and it’s scary. I mean, think about it. When we were in secondary school, we were 13 and we thought, "Gosh, i’m the youngest in school, and i got another 5 years to be the oldest and biggest in school." When we hit 18, we were out of school, and started college life. We still felt rather youthful and didn’t worry much about anything apart from our college studies. Now as we have raced past the 21 year old mark, into the 22nd year of our lives, one can only imagine how fast the next 5 years will go by and by that time my dear friends, we’d be 27! We’d be working and probably be having steady girlfriends and boyfriends, or getting engaged, having more responsibilities, etc. The thought is scary. I mean, sure, some people would say that they love to grow up. Growing up means being treated like an adult and being appreciated for what you do and all that. But for me, growing up just means more hassle. Think about it. You got to start worrying about money, and when i say money it’s not so simple to just say "money." When i say money i mean, working hard, loans that have to be paid off, food to put on the table for you and your wife, insurances, forking out large sums of your salary to pay for your house and car on a monthly basis.  If that wasn’t bad enough, let’s talk about kids! A joy to have but definitely a handful. "Kids." Waking up in the middle of the night when you have to wake up early for work anyway because as babies they will cry for milk or their potty, or buying them what toys they want, disclipining them, I mean, it’s already bad enough that you have stress from work, and now from your own kids? Sheessh! Growing up! Life becomes a drag once u grow up and start to work. There just isn’t enough time to continue with the lifestyle we have now, which is playing, and studying. Thats basically it. As much fun as it is, being able to live this lifestyle, and as much as i hate growing up, I have to resign to the fact that we HAVE to learn to grow up and face the world like men! Or women~~ hehe It’s easier said than done, but we all know we have to don’t we? So good luck my friends. Let us enjoy ourselves at this… erm… erm… not so tender yet not so old age. Muahahahahaha~! For we don’t have much time left on our hands. Some of us are probably gonna graduate soon or some of us have about a year or so left. Thereafter, we gotta start working. But, let’s try to ALWAYS look on the bright side of life shall we?

It’s so sad that i won’t be able to play anymore sports for a while consideting i’m a sports lover. I’ve just hurt my little baby toe on my right foot and the slightest pressure on it just really hurts. *ouch* I guess i’ve been a wee bit agressive on myself these past 2 weeks, what with me playing basketball everynight, BAREFOOTED mind you… hahaha, of course, i know… i should wear shoes, but i’m just playing the sport for fun and it’s kinda ‘peh’ or rather hmmm, how do u explain ‘peh’, perhaps the best way to explain it would be "so lame that it becomes embarassing". You guys would probably find me weird to think that wearing shoes to play basketball is ‘peh’, but it’s like so semangat to go and play, to the extent of, you know.. "putting on his basketball gear man!" Peh lar… I mean, if you’re going to play a ’serious’ game, then fine. But for fun? Nah~~ *laughs* anyway… getting back to the point, i’m not too sure where or when i hurt it, but it’s definitely during one of my basketball sessions. I remember my friend stepping on my toe, or it could be the time when i tried to be too smart and pulled off some crazy stunt with the basketball, i don’t know. The pain came when i woke up this morning. Anyways, this just means that i can’t play sports for at LEAST…. a week! That kinda sux… Oh well, my poor toe~~

As of today, I’m proud to say that I have shot 16 shots of free throws and they have all entered! 16 shots continously mind you. And to miss the 17th shot was like those movies when everything starts moving in slow motion, and i start shouting.. "NOoOoOo……" and ‘ke-dung’ the ball hits the rimb and bounces out… it was painful to say the least, to miss that 17th shot, i was aiming for 20 actually… hahaha, by the way, if any of you are still in the blur, i’m talking about a certain sport known as Basketball… I play it rather often these days, or rather nights, yes I play my basketball during the night time with my friends… Now, for some of you, shooting 16 in a row might be a piece of cake, maybe because some of you are just gifted in the sport, but as for me, i’m just simple old plainjane when it comes to basketball, and for me to enter 16 shots is a great feat! So do pardon me for making a big deal out of this.. Anywayz, i doubt i’ll be able to repeat the feat tomorrow… so there.. if i do though, i’ll be sure to share it with you guys… till then.. cherioz people!

An event that was nothing to shout about really. This was due to the fact that one of the invited DJs couldn’t make it. The worse part is they announced it halfway through the event when everyone had already bought the tickets. What were we supposed to do? Ask for a refund halfway through the event? *sigh* DJ Derb was OK, but i was really looking forward to Hellraiser. Perhaps God didn’t want me to dance to satanic music. I mean, i’m never gonna be a devil worshipper. I just enjoy dancing, and hellraiser’s beats happen to be really deep bass like. But as a christian, I was a bit sceptical about the event. I kept telling my friends, "OoyoOrR Hellraiser ar? Scared lerr… like very satanic only" But at the end of it all, I just went with the thought that i’m not a devil worshipper and i just wanna dance. So there… a dissapoining night it was yesterday but it’s ok.

"Yat keok, tap liong shuen" A chinese saying that literally means, "One leg on 2 boats." I’d like to think that guys use their 2nd head more often than not, rather than the one resting on their shoulders. Now, not all guys are like that, but most of them are. I’ve had many conversations about guys always having 2 or 3 girlfriends at once and their justification is, "We’re young now, so we play. Once we get older, then we’ll learn to settle down and be loyal." To a certain extent, i agree and disagree. I agree because, in any and everything you do, you will get bored of it one day, sooner or later. Do you guys know what i’m talking about? I’m sure each and every one of you have had a particular activity that you indulge in on a daily basis, only to find that after a few months, you start to get bored and tired of it. In the same way, that’s what my friends are telling me. They’re young now and they want to play around 1st. If they don’t and they try to get serious at such a young age, they’re just wasting their time. They’ll get bored with that particular girl anyway, so what’s the point?  Later on, when the responsibility comes along, then they will or rather, they will HAVE to stop playing around. Having said that, I strongly believe that if you get too used to a certain lifestyle, it’s not an easy task to just wake up one morning and say "Hey, you know what? I’m gonna be a changed person today." So when crunch time comes, will they be able to remain loyal? Perhaps they can, perhaps they can’t. Just a passing thought while i was online….

It’s a scary thought to keep eating and not gain a single kg when you weigh yourself a week after pigging out. Those disastrous calories you put into your body WILL turn into fat thus making you gain weight but not straight away. That’s the most terrifying thought, to wake up one morning, weigh yourself and find that you’re suddenly 3kg heavier! The pain! The shock! The catastrophe! I’ve been on a very strict diet for the past 3 months or so, but of late, i’ve been cheating so much… =S Did you know 2 sticks of kit kat contain as much as 217 calories and 6.5grams of fat? And a kit kat normally comes in one packet of four sticks! So you do the maths.. and this is not taking into account the sugar and whatever other "nutritional" values a kit kat has to offer that will in the end, turn into fat and make you look like a round fat ball!! And yes dear friends, i have been feasting on kit kats and other junk food… you guys ever heard of a sweet honey sticking buiscuit from Ipoh known as the "satt keh ma"? Yup, i’ve been stuffing myself with those too. I now fear for my body. All i can do is hope for the best and prepare for the worst. (Drama-nya~~) Of course, i have been doing my daily routine of jogging and basketball at night, but even so, i feel fat! Gosh, perhaps it’s just me being paranoid, i don’t know… Dear friends, if you are reading this post, i hope you will not get offended by anything i’ve said. I don’t think i’ve said anything offensive, but if I have in anyway hurt your feelings, i apologize. I know that talking about being fat or being too thin can be quite a sensitive issue. But i am talking about my obsession with my body and do not mean to stereotype. :)  Anyway, I face an uphill battle, because as Malaysians, we all know the variety of food Malaysia has to offer. In a mamak, you face the temptation of the ever so famous "maggi-goreng double tambah ayam goreng dan telur mata kerbau dua" or the rotis they offer, the list is endless! I’ve even heard of a roti Beckham! Can you believe that? What do they put in that? Good-looking bread? Hahahaha~! Lame joke, ok I know it’s not even funny, but yeah, there are just too many sinful and tempting foods in Malaysia, and i find myself succumbing to these temptations as each day goes by. Do you know how long it’s been since i last ate Mcd’s or mamak food? I fear that my snacking every night is only the beginning of my downfall… sooner or later i’m gonna start gorging myself with Mcds or mamak food. I need to pray to God and ask Him for the ability to resist these temptations. Okay, okay, i’m really getting dramatic and perhaps I should stop. Just thought of sharing my thoughts and getting this guilty feeling of me snacking off my shoulders. Somehow, by posting it on my blog, i feel slightly better. OHh? What’s that i hear? OOps.. i think my kit kats are calling out to me again… =) no no! =( haha, till my next post.. cherioz peeps!

My dear cousin Kat’s birthday was celebrated today. AHhH, it is good to be around family and friends to celebrate a happy and joyous occasion. I had fun… as i i ate quite a fair bit. Gosh, i feel like i’ve put on 1500 calories in one dinner! I was happy to see the expression on my cousin’s face when she entered and we started singing happy birthday. It was……. priceless i’d say… to be able to bring joy into your loved ones life. And as usual, the Tan family, as in the EE’s, started to cry! I mean, even the birthday girl didn’t cry though you could tell she was overjoyed! Hehe, but the sar-ee and the see-ee and the gor-ee and the lak-ees all started tearing… hahaha! woops, how cruel of me to laugh, but yah what~~ anywayz, a little bit of background between my beloved Kat and me. When we were young, we fought a lot. I used to irritate her so much! And she’d get so angry! There was always a rivalry between us. But as the years went by and we grew up, we learnt to live and let live and i’d say we were never really close, but there always was that one "out of the blue" moment when i’d talk to her and share some juicy stories about my life. Point is, Kat is a person who knows how to "deal" with people. You can ask anyone, and you’d find out that I don’t like people probing into my life and trying to make me a better person and yada-yada… in short, I was a stubborn hot tempered kid and Kat always cared for me, but gave me as much space as i needed, and that’s why i appreciate her so much. Though i may not always see her and talk to her, I really sayang my Meow Meow a lot… and probably  alot of you do not know it, perhaps not even you Meow. Hehe, oh dear, i’m getting a bit mushy mushy~~ AnNnywayy… Happy 21st Meow! Thanks for having me at your 21st birthday! *hugz* Cherioz ppl~~ till my next post….

It has been a really long while since i last posted something up. Probably sometime last year… hahaha, oh well, i blog when i feel the need to i guess… and at this moment, i feel i need to…… *crickets* =_="  Anywayz, it’s been a really terrible past 3 weeks for me. Can u imagine sleeping at 7am and waking up at 5pm or 6pm? This is my routine everyday except for Monday nights when i have classes on a Tuesday. In case you guys are wondering, I only have one class a week but before all of you start getting envious of how much time i have to rest and so on… you guys should know that having TOO much free time is just unbearable. The boredom, the unproductivity, the lethargic feeling, it kinda demoralizes you even. I know, i know, i should go and find some part time work, but the fact is, i’m a bit lazy thus due to my laziness, i have no one to blame but myself…. bah!! My jogging sessions though make me feel a wee bit more productive. Perhaps it’s because in spite of my unproductive daily routine, i still do make time for some healthy exercise. Anyway, just thought i’d share my life’s schedule as it is currently. It’ll all change soon though, and life will be hectic for me once again… till the next time.. cherioz ppl and enjoy your busy life while you can! hahaha cheers!